That's What You Get When You Let Your Heart Win

Ring a bell?

Who sings that song by the way? Hehe yep it's Paramore. So I'm currently listening to that song while I'm typing this too. That quote kinda inspired me to write this thing down, been rushing my head since yesterday d'oh!

Sebetulnya sih quote itu membuat gue berpikir bahwa setiap hal itu akan berbeda hasilnya kalo kita mendapatkannya dari hal yang berbeda juga. Entah lo dapet dari otak lo, dari pemikiran lo, dari logika lo. Atau lo dapetin dari hati lo, dari perasaan lo. Hal-hal yang berasal dari otak umumnya lebih menyenangkan, lebih gampang diaplikasikan, lebih gampang diomongin, lebih gampang dijabarkan dibanding hal-hal dari hati. Kayanya kalo hal-hal yang berasal dari hati lo itu kebanyakan bikin susah, lebih susah diomongin apalagi dilakuin, mm lebih apa lagi ya, yaa kayanya bikin sakit mulu ya. Tapi ujung2nya sih bisa bikin happy, kaloooo treatment nya benerr ya. Hehe.

Gue sempet berpikiiiiirrrr banget. Kemaren Ari marah2 sama gue. Marah. Yang bener2 marah. Ngomongnya kemana-mana ngomongnya sembaraaangaaann banget. Gue tau itu salah gue, gue kebiasaann banget gabisa nolak permintaan orang2, gue kebiasaan banget trying too much to please people, every one, dan ujung2nya itu malah jelek jadinya. Hehe iyaaa itu sebetulnya bukan sifat yang baik loh, walopun landasannya adalah ingin berbuat baik. Cause it seems like we cannot please every body at the same time, they have their own time and supposed not to be putted together. Iyalah buktinya dalam hidup ada prioritas kan? Hehe. Intinya kemaren gue udah janji duluan sama Ari dan dengan bodohnya gue juga mengiyakan untuk pergi sama temen gue. Tadinya gue mau boong but can't really help to keep the lies so I thought better if I tell Ari the truth. Err guess what, Ari's pissed out yahooooo. Mad mad mad really mad super mad. I never saw him that mad. Nyeehhh.

Saking marahnya dia bener2 memaki gue. Zzzz, dimaki2 sih gapapa ya tapi kalo dibilang "act like completely slut" mm gimanaaa gitu ya. On twitter lagi. Nyeehhh. Tell me how do you feel, those bad words came directly from the person who says I love you all the time, who hugs you, who gets near you all the time, who wants to be taken care of all the time. To me, he's totally an I love you slut type but in contrary he called me a slut, literally ("I love you slut" itu sebetulnya sebuah frase yang gue contek di fim Made of Honor. Artinya orang yang murah hatii banget buat bilang "I love you"). Gue juga bingung kenapa gue tiba2 dibilangnya gitu. For God sake gue perginya juga sama temen2 gue. Mm gapenting sih intinya dia marah banget dan ngomong kaya gitu.

So I think better think twice before you follow your heart. For I shouldn't follow my heart to get along with my besties and completely forgot Ari that time. And for Ari shouldn't insult me with those bad words that brought me to insecurity, yeah kinda felt odd if I could explain. See what would you get when you let your heart win, rite? ;)