Serendipity

Girls. Have you watched Serendipity movie by John Cusack and Kate Beckinsale? You must be kidding me if you haven't. Well, who doesn't like that movie. Sucha warm love story yet down to earth plot. Simple. Decent. Took set on Christmas time, this movie is surely a good companion for your holiday.

Is that Serendipity cafe for real? If it's real then someday I need to get there and see it in person. Should have a try on that ice cream menu Kate's enjoying in the movie. The word "serendipity" inspires me much then. Well, in shortly, serendipity is a fortune, sucha good luck moment, if I could complete it, happens accidentally. I always wonder how will I get my serendipity. When. Where. With whom. What am I gonna wear that time. Etc. Just a bunch of imaginations. Like daydreaming.

I never really got into such an accident, which brought me into happiness, just like the movie did tell. I get very pessimistic then, that thing only happens in a movie, or fairy tile. Life is much harder, love is more complicated. Until I had this certain moment.

Last Wednesday, I went for a supper and had karaoke night with friends. On the way to the karaoke after we finished eating, we passed a 24 hrs drugstore. That time I saw it clearly, Harry's car parked just right at the corner of that place. I never forget the plate, the stickers, and I asked my friend to slow her car down, being numb for a moment, eyes staring at the drugstore, did my best opting out for him. I saw his friend there, outside. Smoking. Couldn't be wrong, there must be my old idiot human inside. I took a few minutes to consider, whether I should go back or not. I really wanna see him (It is my bad habit. I keep on yearning for Harry) and just wanted to check out his reaction if he did see me in front of him. He's been sending me emails days before, but then I cut it off. Well, cause it bothered my mind. Which I regret later. I cover my pain by blocking him away. But then I feel tremendously suffered from missing him. Besides, I'm gonna leave Jogja for good, soon. That might be the last chance to see him :(

So then I asked my friend to turn around, got back to the drugstore. I really wish that we would have a chance to meet. I was feeling like creating my serendipity moment. Since it wasn't a Hollywood movie, you can guess the rest of the story. It went sucha tragedy. When I arrived, he just got away. I saw his car going right in front me but I'm sure, he didn't get the chance to see me. To know that I was there. I got paralyzed for a moment. Then my friend said that if I didn't get the chance to meet him by that time, then it wasn't my destiny. People can't control their destiny. It is God's conspiracy with the universe.

I got it. That was not a serendipity. That was a destiny. "God had showed me that the time's inaproppiate for us to be met. Perhaps it's true what Harry last said on the email, see you in another life."

So I see, people can't manipulate fate. No matter how hard I try to cheat destiny, I failed at the end. Serendipity doesn't work that way ...

:(